Why do i always fall for the wrong boy? if you read the entry before this you will know about the guy with the girlfriend in my school. well its so frustrating i tell myself to stop but when ever i kind of stop he does something cute and nice to me that pushes me in the wrong direction again! ugh! ... --- its like when ever im not with him i see a chance to forget him but once i see him everything comes back 10x harder. my heart beats faster for a boy who is wrong for me... i hate how i cant stop! i know its so wrong that i like another girl's guy, i know how it feels to have a girl like a guy that was with me. it hurts.
first few weeks in high school and everything changes... a new start. well anyway i am so mad at myself! it seem like all the time i fall for the wrong guy!!!!!!!!!!! this recent guy has a girlfriend and i can't help but like him. its like im setting myself up for disappointment... ugh!!!!!!!!!! man why do i do this to myself. first this guy at camp with the same situation and now this guy whats wrong with me!!! ----- a long time ago i met this guy ( the one from camp) and i totally fell for him, it just seemed like he got me even if i acted weird i knew he was not going anywhere. Then one day he texts me and tells me he broke up with his girlfriend... it was like my prayers have been answered, but i guess this was not the case... when my friend and her big mouth told him i liked her everything changed... my heart was ripped and for some reason i couldn't feel the same way with a guy anymore like there was always something missing. Then out of no where i meet this guy at my school and hes different then the other guys he makes me feel whole again. although there is still something wrong his girlfriend, but trying to steal him isn't the way to go cuz i kno that if he were mine and a girl tried to steal him my heart would break and not be capable of being fixed...
