wake up...please wake up

you know that boy i talk about a lot, the one with a girl friend... well they broke up and i asked him to sadies (the dance) and he said yes. lol it should sound good but the night was not all that great... the last fifteen minutes were spent with me with my friends and him will this other girl who got stood up... it doesnt sound that bad... but that girl was my friend and i know she got stood up but whatever keep that to your self... man... that sounded mean... well this leads me to what i feel about that boy and how i like him but i shouldn't. i have been trying sooooo hard to stop thinking about him... but all those day dreams keep atacking me... and to top it off, seriously, in my actual dreams he happens to pop into them. this past weekend, something hit me and i realized that i shouldn't like him anymore... like someone woke me up from a long deep sleep. I got to school and it seemed that this new assurance and realization was helping me through the day... that is until i saw him... the wall started to break down. Today is wednesday and i cant stop thinking about him...

Talking to myself in my brain: stop thinking about the good stuff and start also thinking about the bad times... i know you are blinded because you like him to much but you have to open your eyes and see what it is doing to you... you cant do your homework, you cant sleep, you are always paranoid if he is there... so start to think about the bad time... like when he left you at the dance, when if was awkard between you both, the fact that he won't go up to talk to you, and when you do talk now its like you have nothing to talk about... you are starting to hurt yourself so wake up... please wake up.