My friend has this band... I could say that I am friends with them... but now that I think about it, they are exposed to a new herizon of people, soon to have seas of fans, and millions of girls falling over them. I realized that me, being the one person that I am, probably doesnt have the impact to have them remember me forever. One day, they are going to be big and I will just be a stranger walking down the street and seeing posters of thier band playing this coming weekend. I will no longer be considered a friend but a person the lead singer once knew, a memory that is soon to fade away. I might see them tomorrow... and although my friend, the lead singer, tells me that I should hang out with them. I can't help to feel the distance... the feeling where they are not even on my level anymore. Maybe its just me being doubtful or lacking self confidence but the feeling is real and at times it hurts. It hurts knowing that your too weak to accept them becoming famous and too weak to know that you are good enough to hang out with them. I have to keep reminding my self that I am good enough... and if i just stay the way i am and be myself its better than forming into the template of thier fangirls. I don't know what I really want with that group of guys... it could be a boyfriend, guy friends, the music, or it could just be that i want to be close to them. Some of those guys, I've known since I was in elementry school, we grew up together... plus they are of the few that i actually liked because everyone else were douchebags... So i guess it goes back to how I hate the feeling of losing people... and broken relationships... 
